If I had to choose three words to describe me right now, those would be it. Recent events have sparked this post. I also haven't written one in awhile so it is about time I do!
LOVE
I choose this word because I try to use it and display it as much as possible. You don't have to show love with just kisses and hugs. It can been shown with a appreciation, compassion, and humor. Every day I tell Jordan I love him. Every day I try to make someone laugh. Every day I try to let someone know they are doing a great job.
I have bad days where I don't do my best at these things. We all do. Yet it is those bad days that I need to try the hardest. Love is never using the word hate. Love is stepping into someone else's shoes and not passing judgment. Love is understanding. Love can look past conflict and find resolution. Sometimes love can mean being silent. You can love by simply being there for someone and not saying a word. Love is listening. Love is being someone's shoulder or someone's foundation.
I feel love everywhere. I love my family, my dog, my fiance, my siblings, my extended family, my parents, my co-workers, my teammates, and the people I have lost contact with. I'm not a hippie and there are days I really wish could end right away but those feelings only brush the surface because deep down I care a whole lot about everyone that is in my life or has passed through it.
TRUTH
This word was chosen because of how hard I seek to find it. Truth to me means a lot of things. I don't lie. I used to all the time as a kid until I found out how pointless it all was. For me, if someone tells me the truth, no matter how hard it is to hear, I completely respect their honesty. I know the people I talk to will respect me if I tell the truth as well.
Being true to yourself. Again, growing up I always tried to be someone else. I wanted to be like so many people and do so many things. Recently, I just asked myself, "What's wrong with just being me?" I'm a pretty cool person. Have I got flaws? Hell yeah. Name me one person who doesn't. I accept those flaws and I accept myself and now I have nothing to hide behind. Between that and telling the truth, I feel pretty liberated. Am I always in a constant state of happiness and good well being? No. I have terrible no good very bad days. One day doesn't ruin an entire life. The next day is a recharge and I get right back on that path of truth.
Truth is never letting your family or friends down. Saying you will be there and actually BE there. Telling them what they need to know instead of what they want to hear. Lying takes up so much energy emotionally and mentally. You tell enough lies or make up enough stories and you'll start to lose track and feel like you are in a constant state of contempt inside your own brain. Let go and see what happens. I bet someone is going to catch you.
COURAGE
I feel like this is a big assumption on myself. However, it is true in many ways. It is another word that has more than one meaning.
People need courage to step outside their comfort zones to experience new things. To meet new people, to start a new life path, to challenge opposition, to fight for their beliefs, or to just wake up to live the day...
I have the courage to tell the truth without fear of ridicule. I have the courage to tell someone what I believe in because it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks. I have the courage to put my fiance's career ahead of my own because of love. (and I get to travel around so that's awesome. lol) I have the courage to change my life path and goals because it's what I want to do. I have the courage to stand up for myself because I believe the bond I share with you goes deeper than a silly argument. I have the courage to push through pain and laugh because that is what truly heals. I have the courage to lead an organization because I made a promise to never give up. I have the courage to stay strong because I have a family that will never let me down. I have the courage to seek compromise because I don't always have to be right. I also have the courage to write this because maybe someone out there needs a little inspiration to make it through just one more day.
I don't know who reads my posts. I don't know if its just Facebook friends or others around the world wide web. I just know its a great outlet for me to just write. I suggest if you get upset or need self affirmation, writing is a great tool. Or you could stand in front of the mirror like little Jessica on youtube. That's pretty awesome, and if you do it please record it. Haha.
