It is literally 3 weeks until I jump on an airplane and take off for the land of fish and rice. Japan! I have no idea if that is even an appropriate description of Japan but I do know they have a lot of both. So whatever, haha.
This is such a weird time. On one hand I'm so fetchin excited to visit another country! I will be stepping so far outside my comfort zone it is ridiculous. I get to experience an entirely different world, new customs, new lifestyles, new food (or just a lot of a particular food, ie fish!), new language, new everything! While I've traveled all over this country, I have never lived more than 2 hours away from my first home.
Now on the other hand, I have never been more than 2 hours from home. Ha! So it is scary and cool at once. I go in and out of denial that I'm leaving and feel a little sad that I'm leaving friends and family for a while. Jordan is going to be gone frequently so I kind of have to navigate Japan on my own from time to time. I have to make new friends. I have to live out of a suitcase for a couple months. To top it off I have like a 16 hour journey to our new home!
I know that overall this experience is going to be the tits! Yes, I said tits. That's how awesome its going to be! However, the first 6 months to a year are going to be the hardest. I'm fine with that. I'm just trying to keep reality and excitement in check and not be naive about what I will experience.
So....3 weeks...that's it. I'm still in denial. I have no idea how to see every one before I go. If I don't see you, please don't be offended! My family and my husband are definitely a priority.
It is so weird, this whole leaving for Japan has brought out a lot of things in me I didn't think I could be. One of which is being more outgoing. I'm kind of an introvert. I typically keep to myself and I'm good with it but I do enjoy company, hanging out, trying new things. I just have the worst confidence sometimes. But lately, I've forced myself to do things I know are going to be awesome and ya know what? It hasn't failed yet! That is what I need to take with me to Japan.
Alright, this post is just kind of a rambler. I know something big is going to happen in my life, I know its going to be hard, I know it will be rewarding, and I know that I am scared and excited. I had a focus to write on when I started this but it fell apart and I kind of went numb!
Am I still in denial?
Haha, I don't know...but I think it'll all work out. :-D
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