Fresh Start Pt. 1

Wow. It has been over a year...ok, it's been almost a year and half since my last blog post.

Clearly trying hard to keep people posted. ;)

As you see in the title, this is Part 1 to many more blogs that I need to write. I don't know how many more, or who will read them, but I am going to write them anyways.

Here we go....

On January 29th, 2014, I jumped on a flight in Fukuoka Japan to Seattle, WA. Why? Almost everyone knows the story by now...for those that don't, my marriage came to an excruciating end. I should have seen it coming. I was given every single sign that God could possibly throw my way. Instead, I batted them back like a one sided game of badminton.

I spent 8 months in utter denial. I went back and forth with blaming myself for the wreckage and thinking very logically with some acceptance. However, with every passing day, with every trip to a therapist, with every anti-depressant I tried to take, with every feel good song....eventually, I accepted it.

I won't go into detail what the actual issue was that ended things. You can make up your own story there. Let me just say, there is no way in hell (which I'm pretty sure I was trapped in) I would have made it through without my two friends in Japan and my immediate family at home. Together we all made game plans. Just as if I was in the middle of a battle, with my back literally against a wall, they all grabbed a limb and pulled me up and gave me the strength and courage to get shit done and move on. It was absolutely incredible.

Alright, moving on!

After about a full month of sleeping.....no joke, I slept day and night for literally a few weeks...I moved from my mom's house to my best friend (sister more like) Emily's house. There I stayed put for a little over a year.

In the first 4 months, I was flying by the seat of my pants! Holy crap. Sleep meant nothing. I needed to get out, experience and enjoy life, meet people, get fit, get happy and just love myself! I had a great job, new car and I really put myself out there at my CrossFit gym. I don't know if they understand it fully, but there are a few people who were, and still are, down right homies. Ride or die type of friends that I never would have met, had I not left Japan.

I was literally out almost every night. No, I was not out getting hammered and partying my tooshie off. I was just out with my friends. Talking, laughing, sharing, eating (lots of eating), dating kinda, lifting, learning, competing! All of my favorite things. I did them all.

It was almost as if I completely transformed. I went from someone who was incredibly unmotivated and bored and alone...to someone who was a damn social butterfly doing all of their favorite things! I couldn't have possibly had more fun!

Every. Single. Day. You have two choices. Wake up and kick ass, or stay in bed and give up. Sometimes you need a give up day...but I hope, more times than not, you get your butt out of bed and do something! Do something you love. Talk to people you care about. Don't hold in your feelings or thoughts. Share them! Get it out! Be you! I promise that the old phrase, "The night is darkest just before the dawn" is absolutely true. Just when you think, or feel, that you need to tap out, something amazing is about to happen. Take advantage of it when it does. :)

Part 2 next week.